Hey. So its been a while…I’ve begun nursing school now. Actually I’ve had two weeks of class, which I have really actually enjoyed. There is something very thrilling about feeling that you are actually learning something you might use in the future.
My favorite days are lab days when we get to do hands on learning…such as hand washing. Aseptic technique, ppe’s, vital signs, mobility and most recently bed baths.
One of the things to overcome with this job seems to be simple acceptance of the human body. There are many things that a nurse is required to do that would seem awkward to anyone else, but as the nurse you must simply accept the responsibility with as much stoic aplomb as you can muster. I suppose it is just a way of looking at the human body. Like the artist who sees scenes and movements as all lines and angles a nurse has to see the body as a machine.
Tomorrow we go to the nursing homes for the first time and I am anxious to meet my patient but a little nervous too.
About the living sit: I find that I really enjoy augusta, and it makes me think…no matter where you live there will be things to love about PLACE. Perhaps it is part of my deeprooted wanderlust philosophy that I believe there is something to see everywhere. That each place, each city, each home has unique secret haunts and thinking spots. In augusta I have found a few of these, mostly by the canals.
Running water just makes peace and thinking so much easier. Let me just tell you that at the park the other day the sun was setting and scarlet over the rippling canal and a family of ducks was venturing into the river. Add a light breeze and the easy banter of nearby fishermen and you get the complete beauty of the scene.
Still haven’t found an adequate soccer field but I’m working on that one. Also, I find that I love my road. That’s right the one that runs by my apartment complex. “Nothing special” you’d say, but I love it. It goes up and down and up and down and its just the right amount of mix between a public and private road.
Another reason that I love Augusta is that it is becoming MINE. As I slowly learn my way about the city I find that I love knowing little back roads and where places are. Odd as this is it provides me with a true sense of accomplishment.
Currently I fear: failing most of all, but also loneliness and not fitting in. This last mostly applies with my roommates. In any situation with three friends two are always closer than the third. Why is it that I always feel like the third? Here’s a truly silly fear for you but one I have held for many years: I fear being boring. Or that other people will think I’m boring. If you do…please don’t enlighten me! But of course these are not new fears but old ones rearing their heads. Fear is just the start of finding faith.
God has blessed me in this, as in every, endeavor and I pray that I would use it to His glory and not my own.
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“Fear is just the start of finding faith.”
Amazing. You are beautiful.